to be near you

I want to be near you always. I have been feeling my empty lack luster world, slip further and further down. I am surrounded by angry ugly energy and it is smudging mine, I have fought to hard to let the nastiness of the other energy pull me down, but when your in it for so long like I have been, it's wearing me down and making me angry, and depressed. I need help now, my energy has been tarnished.
Your so full of goodness, and sunshine, and I feel renewed after we part. I am sad your no longer with me, but I am glad to have been in your presence. To have been able to fill my energy with your white clean good energy. Your always so positive, your always so shiny and clean, I love to be near you, to be touching you, to be holding you.
I feel like some times I am robbing you of your energy, leaving you empty. I truly feel like a new person when I'm with you, when I'm around you. I feel like I'm not me, like I'm a new me, a more confidant me, a better me, and I owe it all to you....you make me feel brand new.

People

I am so sick and tired of people. 90% of the population could wither away and I would not miss them. Pompous, arrogant, idiocy, stupidity, selfishness, self centered, the want to be first, better, ahead of you. No matter what you call it, our fellow humans want nothing more then to be better then you, ahead of you...we all want more then what we have, better then what we have, but are we willing to sacrifice our fellow human being standing right next to us to achieve it? From what I have experienced this is the trend. I am so sick of people treating me with disrespect. I am tired of being walked on, I am tired of being nice and allowing it to happen to me, and not doing anything about it. From now on Expect your COMEUPPANCE !!

That thin invisible line

I had to go lay down on my bed and breath. You were driving me nuts. Insane in fact. I felt my heart racing and my head throbbing. I went into my imagination and took a pair of nail clippers, and took them to that invisible line you had wrapped around me some how, I dont know where it came from or how it got there. But I could feel it linked to me, in my head, pulling me to you. I put pressure down on the clippers and snap the line was cut. Then not in the imagination world, quite literally my head snapped to the side. like i had been pulling away from you, and when i severed the cord the subconscious pull away i had been doing literally in the real world pulled me to the side and i recoiled. WOW how amazing was that. I had no idea that my subconscious brain was pulling away from you and all i needed to do was cut the cord.

(and no this is not about my mother and the cords we make with our parents)

Do you believe in Love

When you've had true love, and I mean TRUE LOVE, your soul mate, your one and only. The light on your bleak world, and due to your negligence, outside interference, circumstances beyond your control, what ever you want to blame it on. The light leaves you and you are plunged into darkness, and you are made more aware and you now know how much more dark the darkness really is for having known the light.

Feels like the first time

So here I go again. I used to blog a lot more in the past. I got away from it. I found this site through a friends blog i was reading and thought I would give it a try. My thoughts my feelings, my way of life. But are you really interested? Who knows, but maybe it is a way for me to vent and get things off my chest, even if no one reads it. So up, up and away !